Today I turn thirty. The big 3-0. To be honest, I don’t know where the time went. I’ve been dreading this day since I turned 25 and I really couldn’t tell you why.
I’d like to say that I woke up excited that it was my birthday but that’s not the way things went. I did wake up to a beautiful family, in our new home, with hubby cooking breakfast and the boys running around getting ready for school. We had a great morning together with lots of love and laughter but once the kids were off to school, and Shiloh was heading to work…the tears came. I hate to admit it sometimes but I am an extremely sensitive person. I feel every single emotion with all of me. I love deeper than most. I cry harder. I laugh the loudest. I give with every piece of me. I am unapologetically myself and sometimes I get overwhelmed.
This morning’s tears were those of me being overwhelmed. I am overwhelmed with the fact that yes, I turned 30. I am overwhelmed with my love for my family. I’m overwhelmed with how far I have come in my business. I am overwhelmed with the amazing people that I get to work with on a daily basis. I am overwhelmed with excitement about traveling to Turks and Caicos for my birthday. I’m overwhelmed that we will be leaving the boys for a couple days. I’m overwhelmed with sadness because I miss my grandparents and I just want one of those cheesy Dr. Seuss cards they always used to give me. I’m overwhelmed with the beauty of this life. I literally just want to stop time and experience every little moment with all of me. I am overwhelmed with joy and happiness every single day because LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL. It is worth living to the fullest.
So hello thirty. You and I will get along just fine. I’m full of hope thinking of the future, of everything I hope to accomplish in my personal life as well as my business. I’ve learned a lot about myself this past year and I’ve come to realize I’m pretty awesome. As a thirty year old woman, I enjoy long walks on the beach (no seriously I do!), a good home cooked meal, hearing my boys laugh and play outside in their big yard, the feeling of security and unconditional love that my husband provides. I enjoy attending church on Sunday mornings and owe everything in my life to God. I love curling up on the couch with a good book, kicking the crap out of my partner at kickboxing, meeting new people on the same level as me, and the amazing opportunities that owning a business has brought. My clients are absolutely amazing, the vendors I get to work with are awesome, and the photographers I’ve come to know have become some of my best friends. You can call me old fashioned and an old lady if you want but I enjoy the simple things in life. The laughter, the experiences, love letters, the warmth of the sun, sand between my toes, how proud my boys make me, and all of the relationships I have. That’s what life is to me and I’m going to spend my 30th year on this beautiful earth experiencing and building those things up.
CHEERS TO 30!
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